Bad Jew Jew

Hahahahahaha!  That's just a play on words, it's supposed to be 'juju.'  Get it?  Please forgive me for that unless you thought it was funny then laugh on.  

So many people have so much hate in them, really, it's overwhelming the amount of hate and negativity around.  I'm not going to sit here and pretend that I'm a saint and I'm never hateful or negative but I try my hardest to stay in a good, positive space.  For anyone and everyone that knows me, knows that I speak in length about 'the pain body.'  I was introduced to the pain body in Eckhart Tolle's book 'A New Earth.'  In the book he talks at length about it and I want to share a few quotes from his book, "...it thrives on negative thinking as well as drama in relationships.  The pain body is an addiction to unhappiness"  Have that friendship or relationship with someone that is drama filled and you can't seem to get away from it?  Hello! It's your pain body fueling up, staying strong... it's toxic to your life and happiness.  "If there are other people around, preferably your partner or a close family member, the pain body will attempt to provoke them-push their buttons..."  Cut that shit out, do you recognize in yourself that you do this?  You just have to say that one tiny, passive aggressive comment, you just have to make sure you get that one little comment in?  You're giving your pain body strength and in return you are remaining unhappy even if you don't know it.  "Some people carry dense pain bodies that are never completely dormant.  They may be smiling and making polite conversation, but you do not need to be psychic to sense that seething ball of unhappy emotion in them just underneath the surface, waiting for the next event to react to, the next person to blame or confront, the next thing to be unhappy about.  ... They magnify the ego's need for enemies."  Wow, wow.  My point is, everyone has a pain body and everyone can relate to some of this in one way or another.  Either you like to give the pain, receive it, or both.  You can manage your pain body by recognizing it when it shows itself; recognize it everytime.  

Here's to being happy and fighting the pain body within me.  That's her beef, not yours; you're vegan.

The little engine that could...

Last week while farting around on etsy I stumbled across someone's shop and felt instantly inspired.  They make their own buttons with perfectly adorable pictures in them.  They are cast resin buttons...   that's right guys, I'm hopping on that boat! My mind was immediately running wild, I could come up with so many ideas, SO MANY!

So I've done my research, I went out and bought the new things I would need, I was just so excited, I dove in head first.  Instant gratification? Ugh no.  This part of the design process and crafting is incredibly disheartening.  You try so hard to nail it perfectly, you can see the end result in your head and it's just perfect, everything you wanted it to be... it's just a crock of shit kids.  It takes time, patience, and determination to get that end result.  At this point in time I'm still knee deep in it, I'm cautiously optimistic, and I'm going to keep swimming, just keep swimming.  

So these are my little minions so far, and by minions I mean buttons.  Am I taking on too much?  Have I lost my mind?  Am I dreaming too big?  Good god, I'm not sure.  Everyone, please, please, keep your fingers crossed that my process continues to move gayly forward otherwise be prepared for, well I'm not sure about that either.  

A little too Debbie Downer?  I'm reading you loud and clear... I have ordered my business cards and they are on their way!  Hot damn!  Everyone will be getting one and I don't really care if you don't want one.  :)   

I'm off to work a little bit on my 'old fashioned' button plugs.  Keep your eyes out for the new ones posted.  

Signing off,

 The little engine that could

Vocation Inquisition

      That's real smart for "job hunting." * New Anthony Bourdain's No Reservations starts Feb 28th.**

      So that's right everyone, I'm job hunting.  I've been looking around for a few weeks now... and, well, no one has any interest in hiring me.  Bummer. Kind of.   I know that I can learn pretty much anything and be decent at it, if not great.  I have a great work ethic, one I've learned from my mother, and I pride myself in taking whatever task is given to me seriously and doing it right.  Everyone can be taught to do something, I mean everyone, but not everyone works hard and takes pride in what they do.  I enjoy people that take their work seriously, whether it's delivering a baby or sweeping the street; they have their job and they do it right, with pride. Rock on for these people.   Now where's my soapbox? Ah here it is... are you aware that you need a degree for everything?! I mean everything!  EVEN things that monkeys can do. (I don't get this saying, monkeys are really smart) I've applied to a couple of positions that sterilize surgical equipment, clean the ORs after surgery, and help the nurses have everything they need... um hello! I did that in NY, just with animals, but I'll tell you, the equipment is the same, the sterilization process is most likely the same, and to be honest it's probably easier because they don't reuse ANYTHING, so most of it goes to biohazard/trash.  These hospitals have no interest in me because I don't have an associates degree as an "OR technologist." I just want to scream!  You need a degree for that?!  It's ridiculous, honestly.  So I solider on, I don't want those jobs anyways! Giant poop on you.  I applied at Wholefoods!  Awesome, that would be so much fun!  There are a few other things in the works but my lips are sealed for superstitious reasons.

      I had an amazing epiphany (rhymes with Tiffany you know) last night, something that is going to take my button plugs to a whole new level.  I just need a little time to tinker around with the idea, master the process and you guys will see the wonderfulness.  Oh god I'm so excited.  I've got Aubrey on the sidelines, ready to help me this weekend...the deal? She wants to go to Hobby Lobby, shit girl, DEAL!

     Update on my lottery playing: I have not won Powerball or MegaMillions yet, I did however choose my own numbers and by god I'm feeling more optimistic than ever. 

I send you off with a sweet little hello from my lovebug this morning, my main man Willie.

Lucky son of a bitch!

I want to be lucky, really lucky actually.  The truth is I'm the unluckiest person alive.  I never, ever win anything.  With that being said I'm playing to win the Powerball and MegaMillions twice a week.  A wise person once said "you can't win unless you play."  Thanks mom, you're the best.  The thing about trying to be lucky with me is that I take it to an extreme, I second guess what I'm doing, which gas station I've been getting my tickets at.  I think to myself "maybe I should switch this time and go to a different gas station, what if the winning ticket is at the gas station I'm passing right now?!" Then the more reasonable Tiffany says, "no, no, no, it's like a slot machine, just stick with the one you're at, you get up and leave and that's when someone swoops in and cashes in on all your hard work and money. You bitch!"  So today I drive by the different gas station and head to the good ole trusty one I've been getting my tickets at.  I usually do the quick pick but I think from now on I'm going to pick my numbers myself and just stick with them, that's how you win it people.  The very first time I picked up a ticket a few weeks ago I matched 2 numbers! 2 whole numbers! It's only $3, but I had the powerplay so it ended up being $12!  Don't slow me down!  I took my ticket, so excitedly took it to the cashier and said "I think I won a few dollars on this one," a line of people behind me.  She scanned the ticket and in not so nice, loud voice screams at me "Not a winner!"  Oh, oh my, well that's not what I thought I was going to hear...   So I'm in it to win it people.  My friend from NYC, Coney Island actually..barf,  Jason and I were talking and he asked if I'd found a job yet.  I very matter of fact said "Oh yeah, I got a job, I'm playing powerball and megamillions."  He laughed pretty hard about that one but in the end he supports me, just hope that puerto rican doesn't expect any of it when I win.

Come on big money!